In the news

Pleasantly surpised this morning to see a story about Imposter Syndrome in the news https://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-6222071/Why-successful-women-suffer-impostor-syndrome.html It is written by a psychologist with experience in the area and details how imposter syndrome is not just low self esteem but something else with its own pattern of thoughts and behaviours.  It gives a bit of history of […]

Does imposters syndrome affect politics?

Its been a fairly standard weeks – no particular highs or lows, just getting on with stuff, which has left me with very little to write diary wise so I thought I would share one of my odd thoughts on imposters and life in general. In the UK right now it is politcal party conference […]

Caught up with myself (or small victories)

Been nearly a week since I made any kind of entry here – but not because I have been deliberately avoiding it. Although I have a general idea of what I want to do and when over each week sometimes everything just goes mad, and all times I have to be aware of my health […]

Still here

I am gritting my teeth and keeping going with the blog after the screw up with social media. The world has not ended.  My roof has not collapsed.  I have not been inundated with surprised friends and family either laughing at me or pitying me. I have recieved compliments from 2 complete strangers on Twitter […]

I screwed up

I made a huge mistake.  I missed that a Facebook blog promotion group was set to public not closed and posts about this Blog appeared on my regular timeline.  This blog was supposed to be anonymous so I could be honest about my feelings without scaring off friends and clients.  I dont know how many […]

Calm, down, a little up

My last post Flat Panic  written at the start of the week when I was overwhelmed with thoughts did help me settle somewhat – especially the last paragraph about small steps.  Having completed the first part of the universal credit application I took a couple of steps backward and made a deliberate effort to relax […]

Flat Panic

In the last week to ten days I have taken or completed several significant processes/steps on my way towards becoming (trying to become) self employed and it has all just hit me this morning and I am in a flat panic – how am I going to get through this I am going to fail, […]

Balance, what balance?

I keep hearing all over the place about “the importance of work/home balance” and balance has long been a part of chronic illness management – but for me it can quickly become another weapon in the hands of imposters. Like most people in the modern world I am have several parts of my life that […]

I did it

Well with many nerves and much trepidation yesterday I did use the new equipment – including the extremely visible hi-viz clothing with the logo branding. I dealt with the fear in stages – first actually putting stuff in the car, then talking to people I knew including other photographers to express my fear in a […]

New equipment – scared to use

So this is the first “diary” post – and I realise most of these are going to be fairly short. I have just had 2 new bits of equipment arrive – not big bits or particularly important bits, certainly not essential, but helpful.  Although only a few pounds in cost each they are also the […]